"Say what you mean tell me I’m right and let the sun rain down on me give me a sign
I wanna believe..."
-Panic At The Disco
First and foremost, I would like to show you all Unfufu! I'm also excited to let you know that I know the sex of Fuffy!
(Just another one of it's nicknames! ^.^)
It's a boy! and I'm undecided on a name! If it was a girl, Unfu- He would have been named L'nayah Mercedes Henderson-Thomas. I would have kept my last name as well as "his" for legal purposes only. (This mama's one smart cookie!) What if Sean makes it to big baller status and I couldn't become a Forensic Pathologist? Nayah would've been set! AnyWho! I was thinking of names like Sean Jibril Thomas II, Malcolm Lamar,or Shane Lorel, Lord knows I think SJ is ugly! lol How does that sound anyway? Just think of me at thirty calling an eight year little boy from his room into the kitchen to clean his mess. "SJ! Bring your little behind in here and clean this up!" NAH can't name him that!
I was on my computer the other day and I saw that Sean was on Oovoo. I hesitated to call but built up the courage to do it. I chickened when the call went through, so I hung up. My heart was racing and I swear I felt the baby kick! Damn, he knows his daddy already? I'm not ready for all that yet. About five minutes or so later, Sean calls back and I answer. He had no shirt on and his rough hair was just as rough as I remember. As we spoke, I stared at the numerous tattoos he'd acquired but one caught my eye. Across where his heart would be, was a capital "R" followed by "iah." He tattooed my name across his chest! He didn't say anything to me indicating that he got it and in our time together, I have never laid eyes on it. Did he miss our not being together? >.< Why is my heart racing, and the little one kicking profusely? Of course I inquired, and to my amazement, he got it the day before I confronted him on his infedilities. He said that he knew we would get in touch and that he was praying for us to speak again. <3 That touched my heart and in a way disgusted me at the same time. Nope, I had to throw up! I rushed to the bathroom, handled my hygiene, and returned to see that he was still on the camera. He asked if I was ok and if I was sick. I replied no but held up my ultrasound picture.
"Sean, I'm pregnant..." I said holding my shirt so he can see our beautiful seed and my halfway fat bellybutton.
The look on his face was remarkable! It was one of sock and amazement. I quickly took a screenshot and saved it for Fufu's baby book.
"Do you know the sex Rae?" he uttered.
"Yeah, a little boy!" I replied wiping the corner of my mouth. He smiled a smile that I haven't seen in months.
"Any names in mind?" he inquired.
My answer was, "I was thinking of names like Sean Jibril Thomas II, Shane Lorel, Malcolm L'mar, Or Sani J'brae." I smiled as I spoke the words "Sani J'brae." I think I've found the perfect name for him.
"I think I have found his name!" I grinned into the camera.
"Whats that?"
"Sani J'brae. I think it's cute and it sounds like his dad-"
"How the fuck do you know if he's mines Rae?" I was interrupted by his incompetant quiz.
"Because you have been the only guy that I have ever allowed to touch me like that." I said softly.
"Look ma, I ain't mean to snap pon you in your fragile state" he apologized in his Jamaican accent.
I nodded my head and rubbed on my ear lobe. That's my vice for when I get nervous or when I'm at a loss of words. At this present time, I'm feeling both at the same time!
"Rae, can we meet up somewhere to talk, in person?" He inquired.
"Ummm sure! where, can we eat somewhere, do I have to drive, and do I have to pay?" I asked a million miles a minute!
"Jackson's Soulfood, I'm going to pick you up, and did you ever have to pay when you went out with me?"
"Whatever, just be here by 1 ok?"
" Iight ma see you then."
By 12:45, I was showered and already dressed in a couture maternity dress and my Christian Louboutin flats. Honestly I thought I would be ugly in maternity clothes, but they make me feel so beautiful! I sat in my vanity and curled my hair at the top and brushed the sides down for I'd cut my hair a week or two before I met Sean.
By 12:55, I was seated in a comfortable black on red leather seat inside of a brand new Dodge Callanger!
(Dude its a freakin' UFO! You know off the Dodge Challanger commercial? LMAOO ^.^)
I got into the car and he just stared me in my eyes causing my heart to melt and Fufu to kick and punch my womb. I winced in pain as he looked down at my engorged belly. I took his hand in mine and let him experience the miracle that I'm blessed to feel every morning, noon, and night. The look on his face was breath-taking as he felt his chi- OUR child kick. I smiled and felt my cheeks flush as I released his hand from my grasp. I turned my head and looked out of the window and noticed that the car was still in park. Gently he took my chin in his hand and kissed my lips. OOH how I've wanted this for so long! OOH how I've dreamnt for this moment for months. This man still takes my breath away and I'm afraid to admit it to him. (Between me and you, I think I'm falling in love with him again!) He stopped abruptly and turned the ignition. We were headed to Jacksons, my favorite place. He remembered the smallest details about me and my personal preferences. That's one major characteristic about him that made me fall in love in the first place. I felt like a couple as we walked into the resturant together. He was being suuch a proper gentleman today! He rushed out the car to open my door for me, took my bag out so I wouldn't have to bend over to get it out of the car, he held the door open and made sure I was in the restaurant before he entered, he even pulled out my seat for me making sure I was comfortable before he got himself situated. He never treated me this good. He used to just treat me madiocre-like. I'm appreciting the attention ^.^!
"Got a girlfriend?" I decided to break the ice.
"Nah, and you bet not got a niggah either Rae!" he told me rather than asked.
"And what if I do?" I decided to probe
"I'm pretty sure you wouldn't have told me you were pregnant, and I'm positive that you wouldn't have accepted my invitation to be here with me today." he rebuttled. Shit he got my ass! I forgot he was soo smart!
I got a doctors appointment to go to I'll fill you in on the rest of that interesting "date" later! nighty-o!!!
--Riah &'ndd Unfufu <3's