Introduction
People labeled me as troubled and…I guess I am. I mean, I’ve been through a lot. I grew up in the hood. I didn’t have the three story house and the white picket fence. I never had a nice car to ride in. I didn’t have a mother or father around. It was just me, my brother, Tyquann, and soon my daughter Skylar came along. I had to provide for them. I did everything I could possibly do to let them have a decent life. I sold drugs, I robbed, I stole from stores, I juked people out of their money. I was even dumb enough to have sex with the young, moneymaking drug dealers across town that didn’t know me so rumors wouldn’t spread around about me. I did it to bring home enough money to pay bills. People say I’m a low life and now more than ever…I’m starting to believe it. Now my experiences are going to be told to you. No censor. No lies. Just real shit from the fingertips of Stephanie Rounds.
Chapter 1
July 15, 11:31 p.m.
“Damn Devils. They always round here messing with somebody.” I said as I looked through the curtains of my living room. I was watching as my next door neighbor was getting hauled away in a police car. That was the 6th time this month them police busted up in these apartments and took another person [or people] to jail. I closed my blinds. I didn’t have time for them to point up to my window and say I’m next. They can do that, you know. They can say you did this or that because you living in low income apartments infested with drugs. They can pull you out your crib in front of your kids, kick down your grandmother’s door, everything under the sun, all without probable cause.
I plopped down on my couch and turned on the T.V. I had just paid the cable, internet, and phone bill thanks to Jerrell…my ex. If I was in need, he’d always do me a favor and give me some money. But, don’t think I get it for free. I have to do him a small favor in return. My boyfriend Adrian would kill me if he knew I was going back to sexing for a check. Speaking of him, my phone started blaring Chris Brown’s ‘Up 2 You’.
“Hey babe.” I said as I answered my phone.
“Steph, I’m coming up. Open the door.” He said as I soon heard a dial tone. I got up off the couch and walked towards my front door, opening it for Adrian.
“What’s up.” He said as he walked in with his hands full of groceries. He seemed like he had an attitude, but I didn’t want to address it. I wanted to have a nice night with him. He went straight to the kitchen and started putting things away.
“Thanks.” I said nervously. He was starting to throw things anywhere. He didn’t respond to me. After he was done he just walked towards Ty’s bedroom where Ty was up playing the game.
I rolled my eyes. “And attitude for what?” I murmured to myself as I walked to my bedroom where Skye was watching ‘Astro Boy’.
“Is daddy here, mommy?” Her 4 year old voice squeaked.
“Yeah.” I said as I laid down beside where she sat up.
She smiled and slipped off the bed. She ran out of the room and I knew she was headed towards Ty’s room. No, Adrian is not her dad but he is like a father to her. He was there throughout my pregnancy with her and he helped me raise her. When people see us all out together they automatically think she is his daughter because they coincidentally look alike. I mean honestly, I really don’t know if she’s his daughter. It could be. Adrian has a brown sugar complexion and hazel eyes with short curly hair. Skylar is light-skinned with hazel-green eyes and long curly hair. They both even have deep dimples. I found out I was pregnant right after I started dating Adrian, but at the same time I was dating Jerrell. I can honestly say that I do not know who my baby’s father is, but I do know who her dad is.
I got up out of the bed and headed towards Ty’s room. Adrian was playing the PS3 and Ty was rolling up. Skye was in Adrian’s lap watching him play the game.
“What I tell you, Ty? Don’t be smoking in front of your niece.” I said as I walked over towards him.
“Aight. My bad sis.” He said as he wiped his seeds off his computer desk and into the trash can.
I turned my attention to Adrian. “Um bay, whenever you’re done playing the game…do you think you could find time for me?” I asked as I put my hand upon my hip.
“Fasho.” He said as he continued to play the game.
I rolled my eyes. “Come on Skye. It’s time for you to go to bed.” I said as I held my hand out. She slipped out of Adrian’s lap and grabbed my hand.
I walked back in my room and put Skye in the bed. I changed my clothes, then I laid down beside her. I reached over and turned my music on. Keyshia Cole’s ‘Calling All Hearts’ began to play softly. I had Adrian on my mind. I was only wondering why he could have such a nasty attitude with me. While thinking, I felt my eyes getting heavy and soon, I drifted off to sleep.
I felt my bed move and immediately woke up. Adrian was getting in the bed on the other side of Skye. I looked on my nightstand to see the time.
“Adrian, it’s 2:30 in the morning.” I cleared my throat. “Why are you just coming in here? You know I wanted to talk to you.” I said as I sat up.
“Man, I ain’t really got nothing to say to you right now. Take yo ass back to sleep.” He said as he turned his back on me and threw the covers over his body.
I began to get enraged. I got up out of the bed and threw on a pair of sweats and a t-shirt. I slipped on my short chestnut Ugg boots. I grabbed my phone off the nightstand and stormed out of my room slamming the door behind me.
As I reached the front door, my bedroom door opened and Adrian’s voice boomed.
“Where the fuck you going?” He asked as he stood in my doorway with at glare that only a man with much power over me can have.
“What’s it to you? Seriously Adrian! I only asked for a little bit of time with you and you give me this bullshit ass attitude for no reason! We’ve been together forever! Shouldn’t you be able to just come to me with your problems? Especially if it involves me?!” I yelled at him.
At this point. I forgot that my daughter and my brother was in the house. I was yelling to the top of my lungs. Ty opened his door and asked, “What’s going on?” at the same time Skye pushed through the doorway and Adrian’s leg whimpering like she’d just gotten hurt. “Mommy…” She cried out as she wiped her eyes.
“Skye, go in the room with Uncle Ty.” I said as I pointed towards him.
“Come on, mama.” He said as he picked her up and closed his door.
“You wanna know why I gotta attitude?” Adrian asked as he walked towards me.
“I’ve only been waiting on an answer since you walked through the damn door.” I said as I shifted my body to my left leg and folded my arms.
“You know Steph, I don’t wanna get off on a long day of work and then hit Wayne’s house just to only find out you cocking yo legs open and giving it to niggas!” He yelled at me as he stormed towards me. He slammed my body against the wall and squeezed my arms tightly. I grunted in pain but honestly, I deserved it. I was caught.
“Let me go!” I yelled at him. A tear dropped from my eye. “It wasn’t like that Adrian…”
“Oh really? Then what was it like Stephanie?” He demanded an answer from me with a slight pain in his eyes.
“I needed the money.” I said as I licked my top lip, tasting the salty tear.
“So, yo ass couldn’t come to me? Your man? The nigga that been taking care of your muh’fucking child since she was in yo belly? I been with you since you was 17 Steph! Four got damn years and you couldn’t ask me for money? What the fuck did you need the money for? To buy them new clothes that’s in those bags stuffed up in yo closet?” He yelled.
“No. I needed to pay the internet and me and Ty phone bill. He had a project due and…and…just let me go. I’m not making excuses no more Adrian!” I yelled as I slid down the door. I found myself in the fetal position.
“Who you fuck, Stephanie?” He asked me as he sat down on the couch.
“Why does it matter now?” I asked him.
“Because it does Stephanie! That’s fucking why! Who the fuck was it?!” He yelled.
“Jerrell.” I answered in a low voice.
“I can’t hear you. Speak the fuck up.” He said.
“Jerrell!” I yelled back at him.
“Aight then.” He said as he got up. “See if that nigga gone pay yo bills, take care of yo child, and keep food in this house. Cause it damn sure ain’t gone be me no more.”
“No, Adrian!” I yelled as I jumped up. “You can’t walk out on Skylar like that!” I said as I grabbed his arm. But really, I felt he couldn’t walk out on me like that. “Don’t leave me, please…” I said as tears poured out of my eyes.
“You shouldn’t have did what you did, Stephanie!” He scolded me.
“I’m sorry, Adrian. But I love you and I promise you won’t have to worry bout this again.” I said as I held his hand. I looked down and twiddled with his fingers.
“Word, Stephanie?” He said as he put his other hand on my waist.
“Yeah.” I said.
“Don’t fuck me over again.” He said as he gripped my waist tightly, making me jump a little. “I love you and my baby girl too damn much.” He said as he lifted my chin.
“I won’t and I love you too.” I said as I looked into his eyes. “Let’s go back to my room. I can make it up to you.” I slightly smiled.
“What?” He said as he looked at me like I was crazy. “Fuck that. I don’t know if he hit that shit raw.” He said nonchalantly.
“Whatever.” I said as I pulled away from him. He quickly grabbed my arm and turned me around.
“I know what you can do, though.” He said as he smirked, showing off his dimples.
Candles were lit, the lights were off. I had stripped down to my panties and bra. Adrian sat at the edge of my bed with nothing on but his Ralph Lauren boxers. I kissed him softly as I slipped down to the ground and sat up on my knees.
“You gone get daddy right?” He asked me as he rubbed his hand on my neck.
I nodded my head and smiled. I rubbed my hand on the outside of his boxers, tickling his balls. I pulled down his boxers, revealing his semi-hard 10 inches. I rubbed him up and down and licked my lips as he stared down at me with a smirk.
“Stop teasing me.” He said. I smiled and wrapped my lips around him. My head bobbed up and down as I gave him the best head ever. I spit on it, played with it and twirled my tongue around his tip. I sucked and sucked. I deep throated, nearly choking myself. 45 minutes had passed and I could tell Adrian was feeling the tingling in his balls because he couldn’t control himself. He was reaching his climax so I sped up my pace, then went really slow. He came. I moved my head as his cum dripped on the sheets where he sat and on his boxers.
“Damn baby.” He said as he massaged his penis. I watched as he went soft.
I got up off my knees, which were in pain. I rubbed them and then threw on the sweats and t-shirt I had on earlier. I walked in the bathroom and grabbed my toothbrush and toothpaste.
I wiped my mouth with a towel and washed my hands. It was going on 4 o’clock in the morning and I had to get up at 8 for this meeting I had to go to start GED classes.
“I thought you would be used to it by now. You still brush your teeth after.” Adrian laughed as he changed his boxers when I walked back in my room.
“Don’t act like you don’t wash your mouth out after you eat me out.” I said as I climbed underneath my covers.
“So, that’s different.” He said as he also got under.
“And how is that?” I asked him.
“Come on Steph. Don’t start. You know why I wash my mouth out.” He said as he exhaled.
“No I don’t! Why? Is it because of what I used to do?”
“It’s exactly because of what you used to do.” He said like he didn’t care.
“Whatever Adrian. You don’t have to treat me like that. It’s not like I still do it.” I said as I turned my back on him.
“So, you don’t think that whole argument we had didn’t have anything to do with you going back to your old days?” He asked me.
I just ignored him. A tear dropped down my eye as he smacked his lips and exhaled deeply. I closed my eyes and bit my bottom lip as I made myself fall asleep.
Visuals coming in the next chapter!! Hope you enjoy and anticipate!
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