Chapter 9: What You Need (Part 2)'Always took you back, even though it made my friends upset. Told me I should blow you off, haven't got that wind up yet.' -Fabolous August"We need to talk." I said as I walked into Michele's apartment. I closed the door behind me and looked at her up and down. She looked a mess. I seen her on her worse day and I thought she was gorgeous but this a whole other level. She had dark bags under her eyes, she looked mad tired. I can tell she hadn't really been eating Her face was a little slimmer. I never knew I had such an affect on her.
"I know." She reached out to me for a hug but I didn't hug her back. Just the thought of Kareem touching her made me dislike the fuck outta her. I just had a different image of her.
She pulled away and sat on her couch.
"I'm sorry."
"Yeah, I know." I nodded my head.
"I've said it a million times and it hurts so much that you won't accept it." She looked down and twirled her thumbs.
"Michele, look at me." I said lifting her chin.
"I already accepted it, but it's hard as fuck for me to move past it. You went and fucked your baby father after I proposed to you? What type of shit is that?" I slightly raised my voice.
"I don't know how it happened. It just did." She started to get teary eyed.
I was pissed at the fact she really said that to me. I mean, you have self-control. You knew you were engaged and you gonna sit here and say I don't know how I ended up fucking my baby daddy? Bullshit.
"Oh…that's cool. So the next time Tasha give me head, I'ma just say it just happened.." I shook my head. At this point I didn't care what came out of my mouth.
"Next time? Wait...what??" She started to cry. She stood up to me.
"What are you talking about August?" I looked away and shrugged my shoulders.
"I HATE YOU!" She swung at me. She started punching me in my chest. She knocked me twice in my jaw and that's where I had to draw the line. I knew she was gone be mad about the shit but she wasn't gone constantly put her hands on me. Because if it was the opposite way around she would be the first to be calling 12.
I grabbed her wrists and forced her down on the couch. We tussled for a little and she managed to wiggle out of my grip. She slipped from under me and fell on the floor. She attempted to get up but I grabbed her by her waist and pushed her back down on the couch. All the while she was still swinging at me and I swear she was trying to hit me in my face on purpose. I grabbed her arms again and held onto them tightly. Laying on top of her to get her to stop squirming, I yelled in her face, instantly making her give up the struggle.
"Chill the fuck out! We both was wrong! What the fuck!" I yelled. I dropped my head and caught my breath.
"We both fucked up. But I didn't fuck that girl and that's all you need to know.""That's all I need to know?" She cried as her chest rose up and down. I got off of her and sat back on the couch as she sobbed.
"I don't know what to do anymore…" I palmed my face.
"Do what your heart desires." She sat up and wiped her tears.
"You know where my fucking heart at and what the fuck I want." I shook my head. Little did she know it, this shit hurt me. I felt like we was over. I felt like there was no picking up the pieces to the puzzle. We didn't have the shit figured out.
"If your heart is here why would you even go a day without talking to me?" She was staring at me with her hand on my arm. She pleaded with her eyes. She needed answers.
"Because I don't think I want to do this anymore…"Her eyebrows raised and she covered her mouth.
"You don't?" She asked as tears formed.
"I don't know." I looked over to her. She closed her eyes as the tears fell. She brought her knees to her chest and put her head down in her lap.
"I'ma just go…" I said getting up. I reached out to her but she saw my hand and pulled away.
I shook my head and walked out her door. Closing it behind me, I felt a lump in my throat. This shit was hurting, mostly because I loved her ass so fucking much.
"August." I heard my name being called out.
"Please don't go…" I stopped in my tracks with my head hanging low.
She finally caught up to me and wrapped her arms around me from the back, holding me tight.
"I would do anything in this world to keep you in my life. I can't live without you. You mean the world to me. You are my rock and I am so sorry I ever gave you any doubts about my love for you. Please, I want you and only you, August. Just don't give up on us." She said as her voice cracked. She was trying to be strong and let me know where she stood with us. I couldn't help but fall for her.
"I'm sorry." I shook my head. she walked in front of me and opened my arms, wrapping them around her. She cried as I held onto her tight.
"I need you. None of this should have happened, but it did. We just gotta get past this. You don't want me to go and I don't want you to go either. So, let's get back to what we started off doing." I ran my fingers through her ponytail.
"Okay." She sniffled.
"So you gone pack your stuff or what?" I asked her as we walked hand-in-hand back into her apartment. She stopped and her eyes lit up.
"I thought you wanted me to renew my lease?"
"I don't wanna be away from you right now. I want you with me, in OUR home." I kissed her.
A smile crept upon her face as she kissed me again.
"I missed you so much." She leaned her head on my arm.
"I know," I smirked, being cocky.
We got back in her place and I sat back down on the couch. She locked the door then stood in front of me. She held her hand out as if she wanted something.
"Oh I gotchu'." I laughed. I pulled a stack of money out my pocket and put it in her hand. She rolled her eyes and leaned down to give me a kiss.
"C'mon…" She threw the money down making the bills separate and float to the ground. I stood up and she led me to her bedroom. She stripped out of her clothes and she took me out of mine, taking control…
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I woke up after the best sex I swear I had ever had. But maybe it was so good because Michele was so special to me and I truly was in love or it couldv'e been that I had been od horny. I don't know but either way it went I knew the shit had me feeling like new money. I hopped in her shower and let the hot water beat down on my back. Michele had a hold on me. Something about her just didn't want me to ever let her go.
I got out and smiled to see her peacefully sleeping with nothing but a white sheet covering her body. I got hard again just looking at her. She was gone get it again before this day was up.
I slipped on my Burberry boxers and my True Religion cargos. I sat at the edge of the bed to throw on some socks.
"Baby…" Michele moaned. She stretched and sat up, still covering her bare chest with the sheet.
"Wassup." I looked back and smirked at her. She crawled over to where I was sitting and wrapped her arms around me.
"My body is so sore." She placed her chin on my shoulder and pouted.
"You wanna be extra flexible and shit." I laughed.
"Shut up, it's been awhile since I've been a little ballerina." She lightly giggled.
"You still got it." I stood up and grabbed my shirt. She laughed and got out of bed, ass naked.
"I'm getting in the shower." She said as she went into the bathroom.
"Aight, I'ma go get some swishers. I'll be back." I said making my way out of her bedroom.
"Oh, wait!" She said running up to me with a big white robe on.
"What?"
"I love you." She poked out her lips for a kiss. I grabbed the sides of her face and connected my lips with hers.
"I love you too, shawty." She grinned and ran back into the bathroom.
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It was around 8 something at night. Me and Michele had been together all day since earlier this morning when I came over. I took her to the mall and shit to ball out on her. I'm not gone say at the moment she deserved it but it was still worth it.
We left the mall and was on our way to pick up the girls from they people's house.
I wasn't too happy about going around them, I mean they not my grandparents. But we were just scooping the girls and leaving right?
We pulled up to the house. There were a few cars in the driveway and shit. It looked like they had company.
"You coming?" Michele said taking off her seat belt.
"For what??" I questioned her.
"Come on, they have bags and you know they're probably getting ready for bed anyway."I sighed heavily and got out of the car. I followed Michele up to the porch. She rung the doorbell and you can hear Autumn's excited voice through the door.
"That's my mommy, that's my mommy! Nana open the door!" She dragged out her words. Michele laughed and shook her head. Kareem's mother opened the door.
"Michele! How are you!" She hugged Michele tightly.
"Mommy!" Autumn pushed through the two of them. She hopped in Michele's arms and she placed kisses all over Autumn's face. After a bunch of giggling, Autumn finally noticed me standing to the side and reached out for me.
"Daddy!" Michele let her down and she came into my arms.
"What's happening lil mama?" I asked her as she grinned in my face.
I noticed the surprised look on Kareem's mother's face. She was probably wondering who the fuck I was and why her granddaughter was calling me daddy.
Michele noticed her expression and quickly cleared her throat.
"Umm Kathy, this is my fiancé August. August, this is the girls' grandmother, Ms. Kathy.""Oh, fiancé?" She asked as she placed one hand over her chest and held out another.
"Yeah," I gave an awkward laugh. I reached out and shook her hand.
"This is my cool daddy, Nana. He's coooool." Autumn said. We all looked at each other then burst into laughter.
"That's just wonderful." She said as she invited us in.
We all walked towards the dining room where everyone was seated, laughing and talking.
Kareem's grandmother was sitting at the end of the table with Cadence in her lap, drinking her bottle.
"Caddie Pooooo." Michele said as she reached out to her daughter. Cadence dropped her bottle and immediately jumped into Michele's arms.
"Mama." She said as she placed a big wet kiss on her face.
"She missed you so much." His grandmother said as she smiled at the two.
"Not as I much as I missed my babyyyy." Michele sung to her.
"And who might this young man be?" She asked, looking in my direction.
Michele and I were about to speak at the same time but then we were both cut off by Kathy.
"This is Michele's fiancé, August." She said as she rubbed my shoulder.
"Isn't that beautiful?" She smiled.
"So, surely you two are staying for dinner?" She asked.
Michele and I both looked at each other.
"Well we were going to take the girls out to dinner, actually." As soon as Michele said that Kareem and Tasha walked into the dining room.
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Kareem"Wassup ma?" I said as I kissed my mother's cheek, keeping my eyes on August.
"Nothing son, we were just about to see if Michele and August wanted to stay for dinner." She said.
"Nah." I simply said as I took a seat beside my grandmother.
"No one asked you." My mother gave me a stern look.
Tasha came and sat down beside me. I noticed she kept giving small smiles to August. The shit bothered me but shawty had been on the good girl tip lately so I wasn't gonna say nothing to her.
"No it's okay. Like I said we already have plans. Thank you though." Michele signaled August to walk towards the door.
"Autumn," I called out my daughter's name.
"Yes?" She turned around, still in August's arms.
"Give ya daddy a kiss.""Okay." She smiled. She kissed August's cheek and I felt my temperature rise. He laughed and kissed her back…
I immediately jumped out of my seat. Tasha quickly stood up to hold me back.
"My daughter don't even know who the fuck her real father is because you wanna run around this bitch being a hoe!" I yelled at Michele. She turned around with the
'what the fuck did you just say?' look.
"That's not my fault!" August grabbed her wrist but she snatched away.
"You barely see these girls. You were barely in their lives! Don't be mad because I'm happy and you stuck with the stripper hoe!" She yelled back.
"Fuck you bitch! You ain't shit! If it wasn't for me you wouldn't have much!" I yelled back.
"What have you ever given me accept morning sickness, labor pains, and excess weight? Yeah…" She chuckled.
"All you ever were was a sperm donor to these girls. You only spend the money on them now because you have a son with this girl over here and you don't want Autumn and Cadence to feel like they getting neglected. You are a joke. A piece of work. You regret everything we had right? So that just means you regret these kids. So, yeah. August is they daddy. He do a lot more for them and he's there. Can you say that? Nah, because you a sorry ass deadbeat!!" She screamed. August rubbed her side to calm her down and everybody in the room just stared between the both of us.
Surprisingly, Tasha didn't say anything back and she just continued to keep holding me from getting to the other side of the room.
"Who do you think you are coming in here, in my house, and disrespecting?" My grandmother stood up. My mother just shook her head like she was embarrassed.
"You don't come over to someone else's house after they invite you in and you come and start trouble. Get out of my house!" She yelled.
I smiled because I felt like I still won.
"I'm talking to you!" She said.
I waited for August and Michele to leave but they didn't budge.
"What y'all still standing there-" I was cut off by my mother touching my arm.
"Kareem…" I looked over at her.
"Yeah?" I said looking back at everyone and then my grandmother.
"You!" She pointed at me.
"Get out!" "Word? Aight then." I grabbed Tasha's arm and we stormed out the door…
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Michele"I am so sorry." I said to Kathy and Rose, Kareem's grandmother. August was putting the girls' bags in the trunk.
"Look, we all know how Kareem is. You weren't wrong for speaking the facts." Kathy said as she hugged me.
"Lord, why is he so different? Dre has no problems taking care of home. Why is it so difficult for Kareem?" Rose shook her head.
"All I know is. I'm not going to 'keep' the girls away from you all, but for right now, I don't want Kareem to see them. So if we can get a different schedule or plan going that's fine." I said being completely honest and being the adult in the situation. August came back and took Cadence out of my arms.
"Umm, I just want to apologize-" He began.
"No, no! Honey, it isn't your fault. Kareem is just a hothead and he can't admit it when he's guilty. You didn't do anything wrong." Kathy said comforting August.
"Thanks." He said. He walked back towards the car.
"Just call. We can talk about this another day." Rose said as she went back in her house.
"Thank you." I hugged Kathy before making my departure.
"You okay?" August asked as we pulled off.
"Yeah." I said as I laid my head back.
"You wanna just go to the crib?" He asked me. He could tell I was still upset.
"Yeah. I'll just fix the girls something for dinner unless you just want to-go." I stared out the window.
"Don't worry bout it, I gotcha'." He said. He hit the bridge and we were on our way to the new house.