[.] Prologue [.]
~Lord, I come here today to say thank you for another day. Thank you for bringing me this far. There is still hurt amongst our family, please help wipe the tears and pain from our faces. Bring us closer. I pray to you this morning for favor. I need peace Lord. I ask for forgiveness right now. I kno that you do things for a reason. You close doors, just so you can open new ones. Whats the purpose please send me a sign. Give me Strentgh to fight on. Give us all strengh Jesus.....
This is the prayer I pray every morning. hoping for change. Nothing has seemed to go my way. This is a new chapter in my life and I will live for the moment and I KNOW GOD will make a way. because after the storm theres always a rainbow~
[.] Chapter 1[.]
{.. Marcus ..}
Its been 2 weeks and 3 days since my sons funeral. Every morning I wake up, I believe that this shit is not real and that im wakin up from a long ass dream. But every morning I wake up and the truth is that I wasnt dreaming. I never thought I would lose my son. Not like that atleast. I remember I promised him my next tour I would somehow convince Kiery to let him come with me. He was so happy, he had already started packing for that. I have canceled more than 30 shows these past two weeks. Todays 2 shows will make 31 and 32. My mom keeps telling me the more I stay in the house the more im going to hurt but I dnt see it that way. I believe that if I stay here long enough then when I get ready to face the world I will be ready in a mental physical and emotional sense. As for kiery, I have seen her twice. Each time I somehow made her mad to the point she would storm out of my house. She calls me everyday making sure im alive i guess you can say. I know im pushing her away but when i look at her I see him. I see that son of a bitch that took my pride and joy away. I dnt want to blame her but its so hard. But I know God will make a way. He will lead me to be successful and I will do it all for my son. Because I know with the God I serve after the storm...there is always a rainbow
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