Chapter Twelve.
I knew he would be coming to find me soon, I was on the next aisle over. I wiped the few tears from my eyes and heard Marcus’ voice. I didn’t even try to run. I just stayed in the spot I was in.
"Indigo, let me-
"
"I saw it all, Marcus. There’s no need for you to explain. Not you. Where is that bitch at though?" I questioned and turned around. Jazlynn was supposed to be my friend, we grew up together. We had went through a lot together and here she was trying to make my man have sex with her. I knew she was scandalous but I never would have thought she would do something like this to me.
"I don’t know," He offered quietly as I picked up a can of some kind of air freshener.
"That’s cool cause I’ll find her!" I was beyond mad and beyond hurt. She didn’t even think about me. I was about to start looking for her when Marcus grabbed my waist.
"Querida, let’s focus on us."
"I am focusing on us! Marcus, she is fuckin’ threat to us. I saw her come on to you, yes. But I also
saw you almost give in. You were about to give in. That’s what you want.." I let tears flow from my eyes
as he pulled me into his chest.
"Indigo Nicole, I want you. I’ve told you that."
"Let’s talk somewhere else. Take my car." I put the can of air freshener back and we silently walked out of Wal-Mart. I was even crying silently. The ride was quiet too, we went to the same park we went to when we first just talked. It seemed like the words flowed here. We sat down at a bench and I just looked down.
"Indigo-"
"Do you think of me like you think of her?" I asked him and kept my head low.
"I don’t understand."
"You want her."
"No, I want you."
"I saw the way you looked at her, Marcus! Like…Like, you would do her right there! Do you ever feel that way about me? Can you even see yourself with me like that?"
"Indigo…"
I got up from the bench and looked at him, the sun was just now setting.
"Marcus. I’m starting to trust you, you need to tell me right now if I need to stop the process."
He shook his head,
"No. Indigo, I’m telling you, I want you."
"You keep saying that. You keep saying that but not two months ago, I was an ugly dog to you!" I
shouted at him. He looked at me and grabbed my hands.
"Indigo, calm down."
"I can not calm down, Marcus. I just feel like your playing me!" Marcus stood up and pulled me into his chest. I tried to fight him for about five seconds but it was no use.
"Indigo, I never thought you were ugly. I just went with what everyone else did. You’ve always been cute. Now, your beautiful."
"But Jazlynn’s sexy." I insisted. I watched people turn their heads to us. But I couldn’t care less. It seemed like this was bringing out my insecurities. All of them.
"What would you rather be, Querida? Beautiful or sexy?"
I thought for a second. It was a hard question, I looked him dead in his eyes,
"If it means you’ll want me like you want her…I would rather be sexy." I didn’t know how to respond to her. I didn’t know what I was supposed to say to that. I justpulled her even closer to me.
"Calm down, Indigo."
"Marcus…Do you really want me?" I loosed my grip so she could step back a few steps.
"More than you know."
She turned her head away from me and I was still clueless as to what I was supposed to say or do to fix the
problem. Hell, I didn’t know what the problem was between us.
"Indigo, baby, what do you need me to do?" Indigo bit down on her lip and then kissed me. She kissed me with everything she had and I returned the favor. This girl thought I didn’t want her but in actuality she was all I wanted right now. She pulled away from me and we were both quiet.
"I’m not mad at you, Marcus." Indigo broke the silence. I looked at her, rather studied her. I pushed some of thehair out of her face.
"Then why put me through this?" I asked her honestly. She forced a smile on her face.
"So you know how I feel when stuff like this happens. So you know how it affects me." I nodded and pulled her really close to me.
"I like you a lot. I’m trying not to hurt you, I’m trying so hard to be good to you, Indigo."
Indigo looked at me,
"I know. I can feel it." We sat in silence again and I grabbed her hand and just appreciated the connection we had going on.
"Marcus…your making it really hard for me not to fall for you."
"That’s my job."
"Marcus….I’m falling really hard for you." She admitted. I turned to look at her and her eyes were averted from me. Her hair blowing. I leaned back, took my finger and turned her head towards me.
"Indigo, I’ve been fallen for you. At first, I thought I had just spontaneously had saw your beauty. But it was gradual. It started in sixth grade. When you first wore a dress…it was red." She nodded and smiled.
"Then why were you mean to me for so long? I seriously thought you hated me."
"I’m sorry I put you through that, Indigo."We were quiet again and I thought about what I told her. It was true, very true. And I couldn’t give her an honest answer as to why I did it. But I had and I couldn’t take it back. I was deep in thought when I felt her soft lips on my neck.
"You tryna get in trouble tonight?" I asked her coming back to reality.
"Not tonight. Let’s go, it’s getting late."
As she drove me back to Wal-Mart, I thought about our conversation. It was very possible I was falling in love with Indigo Nicole Jones.
And I did not mind one bit.